Back in the Game

Hi friends,

Let me just start by saying I’m glad you are here. I am so happy you are reading this blog post. I have been dealing with a particularly severe bout of depression and I let this blog go for a bit. Thank you for being so patient with me.

But now, I’m feeling the urge to write again and I want to write to you! I don’t often say this about the things I create, but I like this blog. I’m actually pretty proud of it. I had a goal to make money with it by the end of 2019, but you know what? Goal cancelled.

If I do, cool. If I don’t, cool. I like to write and I like connecting with people and there is no reason I should turn this blog into a chore.

My new goal: (Part 1) Make an honest attempt to post once a week… probably toward the end of the week, like Thursday or Friday. (Part 2) Make some connections with people through my blog and get to know them a little bit.

Have you been reading and want to reach out? Go ahead and comment! Introduce yourself! Honestly, I would love to know what your favorite show is and why. I love watching T.V. Mine is Doctor Who because I feel like that show makes a huge point to make the case that every. single. person. is. important. Donna Noble’s storyline is my favorite because I relate so hard.

What about you? Go on! You can do it! Reach out for a little human interaction. It’ll be fun!

Back in the game d&d

Inspiration to Get Your Homework Done

If you’re anything like me, you are a procrastinator. For example, I’m putting off homework right now! In my intro to college class (that colleges make you take so you know how to study and what resources are available to you and how to make it in the real world) we are talking about how lack of motivation is the number one reason students drop out of school. They may say it’s money or that it’s too hard, but it’s more than likely that they’ve run out of steam.

I wish I looked this good when I don’t want to get out of bed but that’s a lot of effort and makeup to sleep in. Not that I haven’t done it before…

Here’s the thing. You’re going to lose your motivation. It happens all the time. Becoming an adult means learning to find the motivation again after you’ve lost it. Elementary school teachers are constantly trying to figure out how to teach material in a fun and engaging way so that the kids stay motivated to finish the lesson and remember the subject matter. The older you get, the less interested your teachers are about making it fun, more they are looking for meaningful connections and discussion. You have to find inspiration and motivation on your own.

And so it goes with life. BYOI (or BYOM for those who like that better). You’re going to have to do things you don’t want to do. There will be times you have to summon the motivation just to get up off the couch or out of bed. For people with depression, this is impossible. Or at least it feels that way.

The first thing to do is believe it is possible to get your homework done. Repeat after me: I can get my homework done. Breathe. Say it again. Take a bigger breath and say it one more time. You got this.

Look! The Doctor believes in you!

The bright side to doing your homework is that you probably only have to get up to go get your materials. Otherwise, you can just sit down on the couch. You don’t have to get up or do manual labor. Physically, this is an easy task.

Something I do a lot when I am procrastinating and dreading homework is to make a homework plan for this particular homework session and for the week. I like making lists and I like seeing things in small tasks. It helps me. I like having a plan.

Journaling has really helped inspire me lately. Try opening a Google Doc and writing out your ultimate goal for your education. Do you simply want to graduate high school? Go on to college? Graduate from college? What kind of degree do you want? What might be nice to major in? Write out all these things and then write a story from your point of view. I want you to imagine you are achieving your ultimate educational goal right now. I want you to write what is happening to you, where you are, who is with you, a whole complete description. Make sure to include how you feel on this day. Once you’ve finished, you’ve got a vision. Look back at this during the bad times, when you can’t remember why you wanted to go to college in the first place. Resist all thoughts of impossibility. If you can’t, write down the thoughts running through your head and change can’t to can and write down why and how you can do it. Every negative thought should become positive

Go to Pinterest. Make a board just for homework inspiration. Put pictures of pretty desks on it. Find interesting homework assignments and funny ones. Put pictures of what you imagine you will look like after completing your homework or schooling. Find cute school supplies and backpacks. Anything that moves you to want to do your work, put it there.

Make a playlist of your favorite movie soundtracks. Try to stay away from songs with lyrics and songs that remind you of lullabies. Keep it upbeat and moving. You’ll like the familiarity of the music but it won’t distract you from your work. Original video game music is also great for studying because it’s meant to keep your focus and keep you on edge, helping you get your homework done faster.

Play pretend. Make believe that you work for NASA and that it is imperative that you figure out these equations pronto. Maybe you’re a detective taking detailed notes on your subject. You’re not about to let another murder happen on your watch. Or you could be sitting on a train in the early 1900s writing a novel or a letter to your dearest friend while a server brings you champagne (go get a champagne flute with whatever drink you like to complete the picture), or my personal favorite, you are studying with your crush and you are sitting right next to him. He doesn’t know you like him, you don’t know he likes you, but you both have fallen madly in love. He watches you and all your little mannerisms when you’re not looking. He’s learning the little things about you and he accidentally lets it slip that he knows too much about you for your relationship to be in the friend zone. He lends you his sweatshirt and it smells so incredibly good and you and he study together, neither of you willing to admit your feelings, but he is confident and sure of himself. See? You can get super detailed with it if you want to (as you can see I have). Make your homework a part of your happy place.

Look, I know you are dreading this. Start with fifteen minutes of work. If you can get through fifteen legitimate minutes of work, then you can treat yourself to a cookie or reading one chapter of your favorite book. Find something.

You can do this.

You can do this.

You can do this.

I believe in you.

I love you.

Five Great Shows To Keep On Loop

“Thanks, Jack, for coming to this emergency meeting. I’m sorry I’m four hours late, but my alarm clock didn’t go off because it died in a cock fight last night.”

Tracy Jordan, 30 Rock

I keep a screen on all the time. I can pretty much guarantee it’s not a good thing, but here we are. I am a stay at home mom so that screen is pretty much my link to the adult world. I watch certain shows over and over again (usually up until the last couple of episodes so I can start back at episode 1 and it’s like it never went off the air). I could dominate “The Office” themed trivia night.

I’m one of those people that keeps the screen on at night because it’s hard for me to sleep without it. I have tried and occasionally I can, but most of the time I’m up for hours thinking about terrible things like

  • what would I be doing right now if all my family had died in a car accident last week?
  • what if I had never married my husband?
  • what if my daughter had cancer and had to live in a children’s hospital and our family had to move to be close to her?
  • what if I am going to die tomorrow?
  • what will happen to me?
  • will my soul actually go to be with the Lord like I hope?
  • I’m not a great person, maybe I will go to hell.
  • What will hell be like?
  • How will I live for eternity in hell?
  • Oh God, Jesus save me.

Things get real really fast when I try to go to sleep. If I turn on a show, my mind follows what’s happening in the show, even though I can’t see what’s going on because I am literally closing my eyes to go to sleep. It’s why I only put on shows that are light-hearted and familiar. I can’t put on anything I haven’t seen before, because then I will be too interested in what is going on and I won’t fall asleep.

I’ve come up with some of my favorite shows I keep on loop during my time. They can all be found on Netflix, Hulu, and Amazon Prime.

  1. Bob’s Burgers – Hulu: This show is genuinely funny with its musical numbers and quirky family (and turkey). It follows the Belcher family as they navigate three children and running a not-too-successful restaurant, but they are pretty terrible at life. It makes for a great show though. 
  2. Grace and Frankie – Netflix: Frenemies Grace and Frankie meet up for dinner with their husbands, whom they have been happily married to for forty years. They think their husbands are announcing their retirement. Come to find out, their husbands are leaving their ladies… for each other. I am not sure why but this show truly comforts me. It has its fair share of drama but it is honestly funny throughout. Jane Fonda and Lily Tomlin make me excited to get older. 
  3. The Office – Netflix: This one had to be a given. It’s the perfect show to watch over and over because the jokes never stop being funny. It follows a group of office workers in a paper company led by a completely incompetent boss. There are a few fantastic love stories to be found and a million “that’s what she said” jokes.
  4. Doctor Who – Amazon Prime: This is my favorite show in existence. I could watch this and only this for the rest of my life. It is a British show about a time-traveling alien called “The Doctor” who flies around in his T.A.R.D.I.S. (i.e. living spaceship) that is bigger on the inside than it looks on the outside. He usually has a companion with him, usually a human from earth and usually from our time period. The amount of ridiculous is hilarious in this show and the idea of dignity for all is prevalent throughout. It’s been on for over fifty years! If you have never seen it, I recommend you start with the ninth doctor and push through the cheesy special effects (they get better). It’s absolutely worth it. If you haven’t seen it, it won’t be a good one to keep on loop because it’s too interesting, but when you have caught up, it makes for a great companion to your days. 
  5. The It Crowd: This one will have you laughing so hard, so maybe keep it on during the day only. It’s another British show (I end up watching a lot of those) and it follows the I.T. department of a company, which is four people. Two are socially incompetent nerds, one is a woman who lied her way into the job, and the last one… well, spoilers. Try it. Trust me. It’s amazing. 

These are just some of the shows that bring me comfort. I’ll probably do another post soon with more suggestions but for now, check these out. You won’t regret it. Happy binge watching!

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